Deep, intense, vibrant
pink: yellow: words can’t convey
begonia beauty.

Deep, intense, vibrant
pink: yellow: words can’t convey
begonia beauty.
The last one, and perhaps the one that hurts the most; my younger sister and one of my best friends ever. Thank you for reading these poems; For me, May is time set aside for remembrance.
FRANCES
Here I will rest
My ashes falling
Into swirls of bog-brown water
In Spring perhaps
The river quiet
And the birds gone mad
My ghost will hover –
A shape in powdered white
Casting chills on my attendants
Willows hang their leaves
Across the rush of water
Such an airy, fragile green
And I think of you –
Your airy, fragile spirit
Gone out of turn before me
Our childhood memories
All lop-sided now
A pulse of anger yet –
Why aren’t you here!
You should be here!
The mystery of your absence
Plagues me
I kneel beside your grave
Bend low to sense your soul
Breathe in the smell of earth.
When I was a girl, a long time ago, most people had very strict parents, and I remember so well, the feeling of being squashed and kept down – it was just how things were then. Every Summer, we went to an Irish College in Donegal. The first time I went, I was fourteen, I fell in love with everything about those holidays, and Donegal is still my favourite place.
Wet Sunday afternoons
Micheál Ó hEithir full-voiced
My father leaned to hear
Forbidding us to talk
We kept our heads down
Read our Enid Blytons
Visits to relations
Sit straight with ankles neat
Weak tea, not quite hot
Men who would be jolly
Women with their blouses
Buttoned to the nose
Restless, teenage years
Stultified, depressed
Hemmed in by the iron will
Of parents bent on purity
Chips at the harbour wall
A mortal sin
But ah – August in The Rosses
Let loose among na buachaillí*
Blood-red cheeks and sparkling eyes
Mascara thick and black
And lipstick for the céilí –
Bhí gaeilge fíor mhaith againn!**
*the boys
**We were very good at Irish!
My roots warm up
Beneath the fertile soil
I stretch my arms aloft
To sun and wind
Tossing all my blossoms
Delirious.
All the pretty plants
Opening to the sunshine
Spring in its glory.
My mouth is stretched –
A soundless wail of anguish
For the sorrows of the world
An eye into hell
In the corner of my room
Cry out your lamentations
Prostrate yourselves
And weep, and weep, and weep.
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(I have looked on several sites but cannot find a title for this poem. (This poem reminds me of ancient poems translated from Irish, not in the sentiments but in the structure.)
I’d like to be a nest if you were a little bird.
I’d like to be a scarf if you were a neck and were cold.
If you were music, I’d be an ear.
If you were water, I’d be a glass.
If you were light, I’d be an eye.
If you were a foot, I’d be a sock.
If you were the sea, I’d be a beach.
And if you were still the sea, I’d be a fish, and I’d swim in
you.
And if you were the sea, I’d be salt.
And if I were salt, you’d be lettuce, an avocado, or at least a
fried egg.
And if you were a fried egg, I’d be a piece of bread.
And if I were a piece of bread, I’d be butter or jam.
If you were jam, I’d be the peach in the jam.
If I were a peach, you’d be a tree.
And if you were a tree, I’d be your sap . . .
And I’d course through your arms like blood.
And if I were blood, I’d live in your heart.
Tinted warm by rose and amber light
Melanie smiles and pouts her painted mouth
Exotic spider, webbed in scarlet silk
She wears the face of Venus, Helen, Circe
Drawing one-hour lovers to extol her grace
And wit. She lends her body, listens, comforts
Promises a paradise of lust
The door lets in the shocking light of day
Melanie leaves, her pockets full of gold
Her eyes are clean and cold and bold
And know the sorrows of the world.
A touch of colour and my face
Jumps into focus
Don’t look too close –
Disintegration has begun
And death will lend it speed
Until my bones are bare and
Waiting for the second coming
(And won’t my pale bones
Jump and rattle
Expecting light and mercy
New flesh to cling and bring them
From the dark
No mercy from the scald of light
No paint can hide
The fright behind my eyes.
God. It’s all so one-sided. Generally, we are careful not to offend those who believe in a religion, but shouldn’t that work both ways? I get very annoyed when someone asks me if I believe in god – as if god was a given, and you either believed in “him” or not. For me, there is no god or goddess or godhead to be believed in or otherwise and when I give this answer I get two different reactions:
Some people become defensive and really angry and begin to harangue you with arguments to prove the fact of a god; they tell you that one day you will know the truth and that they feel sorry for you. They tell you to look around you, at the wonders of nature, the intricacies of the human body etc.
Or, they pretend to be amused; they wag a finger at you and laugh and say that god has not forgotten you; worst of all – they promise to pray for you. Their arrogance and complaisance and condescension, their bigotry and utter stupidity is incredible. and it never occurs to them that they might give offence. As my father used to say about these people – they’re as well raving there as in bed.
All the same, when I was a child I did have faith and here is my nostalgic poem:
THERE WAS A TIME
In the dim, silent church
A glow of votive lamps
Fluttering blue and gold and red
Whispered prayers in corner shrines
Beneath the outstretched hands
Of painted saints
Beads clicking, slowly told
Sundays burst in glory
Sweet choir lifting voice
The Truth sang in my mouth
I filled my eyes with bright
And lustrous threads
The golden flame of candles
Veiling mysteries at the altar
The heavy scent of flowers
Inhaled security
And a weightless peace
In certain knowledge of hereafter
Our hearts were warm, absolved
Beloved of our maker
And safe in the house of God.